I’m going on a missions trip for the first time in a very very long time. I’m going to teach English at a day camp to a bunch of middle schoolers and high schoolers. I’ve been really excited about it but as the day is coming up, I’m getting so nervous. We’re also going to try to get to know the students more and talk to them about the Gospel. I’m trying to surround myself so much with God’s word and not consume social media, TV or any other distracting information. I feel like I’m nervous because I’m putting a ton of pressure on myself to do a certain way even though our leaders are telling us to expect things to go wrong and that’s okay. Yeah, tell that to a perfectionist. You might as well tell me to rip my hair and gouge my eyeballs out hehe. I’m all of a sudden feeling all timid and shy but I know that God did tell us He didn’t give us a spirit of timidity and fear but of love, power and a sound mind. Lord, help me take that on as my identity.
Some things that I’m trying to do right now to emotionally and spiritually prepare for Serbia are:
- waking up early and reading the Word and praying
- moving my body: walking, Pilates, running, dancing
- writing a blogpost a day / journaling
- reading “Life of the Beloved”
Honestly, I feeling like I should add talking to mentor or a friend every other day about the trip so they can keep me in their prayers.. hmm that’s probably better than ignoring my anxiety and have it reappear on the trip.. yeah, talking to someone is probably a better strategy.